Anyone Desperately Wish To Tell About Stress But Can Not Until Asked
I have read numerous posts regarding the unpleasant ideas about having to reveal stress details to your t, although I am hoping this is simply not totally insane. I'm dealing with the other.
I have many 'concerns' that I am aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step-father to an adult that I trusted in high-school like a maternal figure that later showed she had different ideas for that connection... and then what's daily becoming more of the confidence that I've repressed very early neglect (I've always had dangers but am not experiencing his and my style in my own I want to talk, but cannot brain which isnot satisfying change of words)... I have NEVER told information on any one of this stuff. I've described to two people that "anything" occurred with this particular person that was the level and I trusted. Images, small video in my own head of the ones from the and now these sounds of what I suspect plague me.
Does this make sense to EVERYONE? I understand I would be REMARKABLY embaressed to state the things I'd need to and that I hope it'snot anything ill making me need to... But I am so worried we are going to spend years because he thinks I'm scared tiptoeing around the specifics and I am desperately wanting to pour the beans. I wish I can tell him this, but it is not allowed.
I have discovered that I can not tell him ANYTHING if he doesn't ask directly and am dealing with at. I have told him this and he's great at trying to ask me questions. The problem is, I also can not tell him what to ask. it is like I am banned to simply freely tell things but I'm permitted to answer, although I know it might appear completely ridiculous. He has gone back and forth about 'control' injury and after that I think I am so silent about things happening he does not think they starts to consider we need to get another direction and are. I get angry after I hear him get very depressed and speak about not addressing the injury particularly and want to stop hope about actually getting relief. It's like I UNDERSTAND I've to acquire out these facts but I cannot tell him that. I believe he is also concerned I cannot handle coping with the injury directly because of my panic disorder, but I really don't know how to alter any of this. He discusses trauma that you can and attempting to take action with as little depth and that I have learn about all these new techniques to cope with PTSD without detailed control, but I would like it bad.